be due

today was hard
tomorrow will be worse

the snow makes me lonely
i cry myself to sleep
the cold air chills me
and i miss you

if i could just muster up the courage
to visit you in my dreams
but i block you out
you scare me to the core

your waiting for me to speak
but silent i remain
i dont want to be true
the truth scares me

babies i need
baby fever i have
to give madeline a sister
to complete our family

without a daddy
i would could not be ok
nervous breakdown the last time
with two it would be worse

be near me
hold me
bring her here
and help me thru

christmas alone
twinkly lights
laughing at me

fake it for maddie
do it for her
cry yourself to sleep
again and again
your crazy
and noone understands

heres a hug
thats what i need
all will be fine
in due time

block her out

I read somewhere (celestine prophecy) that a person can drain your energy just by being near you.
i truly beleive this
this has been happening to a friend of mine for quite some time

he used to have spirit
he used to have fun
laughter is not something i have heard from him in many years

not any more

his "girlfriend" has drained his soul
she has taken his fun and turned it into anger

i want to punch her in the face
cut her off from him
so he can feel again
laugh
be free

positive into negative
negative into positive

finish her off
leave her for good

i saw you smile tonight
and i almost melted on my barstool
come back to us
leave her behind
be yourself
and live

shes done
im here
let it out

enjoy me