a big change

three days ago
I quit smoking

every second of those three days
i have wanted to smoke

every second

i am thinking about it right now
pulling the smoke in
over my lips an into my chest

feeling it fill the void
cutting anxiety

4 bucks a day
finding it
scraping for it
borrowing it
begging for it

im craving just thinking about them

i know the smell is nasty
the taste is like bile
my skin is starting to wrinkle
my breaths are short
and sometimes they burn

i did what i had to
to fit into my life

and now im doing the opposite
to get out

will it work?

200 minutes a day
17 years

thats going to be a hard habit to break
and this patch doesnt do shit!