I am not here to judge
when I met the father of my child
he said that I intrigued him
"you didnt judge that boy and shun him like the rest of us did"
I have no right to judge
this boy started working at the same place that we did
in a casino
lots of judging there
like a high school
but with alot more money
this boy starts work
and i hear about him through the gossip
he has jet black hair
he dies it himself
he slicks it back
and wears white makeup to make himself look pale
cherry lipgloss to brighten his lips
and black eyeliner
to define his grey eyes
they claim he's a vampire
which we all know is not true
hes just a disturbed individual
like the rest of us
just in a different way
he likes to tell stories
and get attention
but still
i dont judge
i talked to him finally
we worked together alot
turns out he was friends with my brother
back in high school
he's just a normal kid
into d and d
and magic
his style reflects his personaltiy
and i liked him immensly
he left there in pain
the other people ran him out
just because he was different
well, let me tell you
i know all of their secrets
and they were way worse than he was
maybe i shouldve judged them
and gave them the same dose of hate they threw his way
but i do not judge
i love them all the same
i dont understand
how people go through life
with this chip on their shoulder
it makes me so sad
to see a man in a bar
walk up to the skinny girl
and ignore the chubby one
she probably has more in common with him
than the twit does
deep rooted passion
for the things that she loves
feelings that extend beyond the mirror
takes nothing in vain
but just loves with her heart
and not his checkbook
i have noticed this lately
with my own experiences
i have gotten a little chubby
since the birth of my child
and my friends are skinny
they get approached at the bar
but they have nothing to say
so i end up talking to these men
whom im not really interested in because of the reason they are there in the first place
but they listen to what i say
and want to know more
but i blow them off
because i dont need any more judgemental people in my life
i see how it works
because ive been the pretty girl
i still am
but with more to love
and more in my head than most people expect
its crazy how you think your going to just see someone a few times
and you think theres nothing there
then out of the blue
they fall in love with you
i am so way off topic
and this has gotton out of control
i was supposed to write about judging
had it in my head all day
i guess my passion to see people the way they really are took over
im sorry
if you talk to me
i will not judge you
but see who you really are
and be a good friend
just dont fall in love with me
he said that I intrigued him
"you didnt judge that boy and shun him like the rest of us did"
I have no right to judge
this boy started working at the same place that we did
in a casino
lots of judging there
like a high school
but with alot more money
this boy starts work
and i hear about him through the gossip
he has jet black hair
he dies it himself
he slicks it back
and wears white makeup to make himself look pale
cherry lipgloss to brighten his lips
and black eyeliner
to define his grey eyes
they claim he's a vampire
which we all know is not true
hes just a disturbed individual
like the rest of us
just in a different way
he likes to tell stories
and get attention
but still
i dont judge
i talked to him finally
we worked together alot
turns out he was friends with my brother
back in high school
he's just a normal kid
into d and d
and magic
his style reflects his personaltiy
and i liked him immensly
he left there in pain
the other people ran him out
just because he was different
well, let me tell you
i know all of their secrets
and they were way worse than he was
maybe i shouldve judged them
and gave them the same dose of hate they threw his way
but i do not judge
i love them all the same
i dont understand
how people go through life
with this chip on their shoulder
it makes me so sad
to see a man in a bar
walk up to the skinny girl
and ignore the chubby one
she probably has more in common with him
than the twit does
deep rooted passion
for the things that she loves
feelings that extend beyond the mirror
takes nothing in vain
but just loves with her heart
and not his checkbook
i have noticed this lately
with my own experiences
i have gotten a little chubby
since the birth of my child
and my friends are skinny
they get approached at the bar
but they have nothing to say
so i end up talking to these men
whom im not really interested in because of the reason they are there in the first place
but they listen to what i say
and want to know more
but i blow them off
because i dont need any more judgemental people in my life
i see how it works
because ive been the pretty girl
i still am
but with more to love
and more in my head than most people expect
its crazy how you think your going to just see someone a few times
and you think theres nothing there
then out of the blue
they fall in love with you
i am so way off topic
and this has gotton out of control
i was supposed to write about judging
had it in my head all day
i guess my passion to see people the way they really are took over
im sorry
if you talk to me
i will not judge you
but see who you really are
and be a good friend
just dont fall in love with me
posted by GingerSnaps at 4:13 PM
6 Comments:
Unfortunately, Red, we live in a time when everything is a commodity, even people. Yet viewing things that way never brings happiness, and people wonder why they aren't happy when they have the "perfect" spouse, house, car, stuff.
The world needs more "real" people, unafraid to be true to themselves. Too many people adopt a persona in order to be accepted by the world, and wind up disappointed anyway.
I dont want things to be perfect. i like things to be real. true people, i firmly believe are the ones that make a diffference. not the ones that just let the world go by unexplored.
I am not here to judge either. I have always been the chunky girl, desperatly wanting to be the thin girl that everyone wants to talk to . So, a few years ago, i took diet pills..exercised my ass off, and lost a shit load of weight...60 lbs to be exact...but I got sick about it. Sure, I made new friends, got the attention that I wanted, but in the long run, it wasn't worth it. I ended up gaining all of my weight back, and then some..and am back to my chubby old self. Sometimes being the chubby one is not so bad after all...
I am glad that you are true to yourself, as I can see it in your writings. The world could use more great writers like you...to be raw and real..thell it like it is. :)
Sarah
You are so real. And perfect. Perfectly you!
Love to the perfect you!
Lightfeather
I'm a fat girl...always have been, probably always will be. I am trying to lose weight so I can be healthier, but I know I'll never be skinny. I never equated skinny with pretty and fat with ugly. My self-worth is not directly proportional to my dress size. I'm fat, and I rock. And if someone has a problem with it, it is truly THEIR problem, not mine. I have always presented myself like this: "This is who I am...take it or leave it. And if you leave it, then you weren't worth my time anyway." I didn't get picked on. I never got excluded. I always had a boyfriend. It's about who you are at your core, not about what you look like. I never wasted a spare thought on those who thought otherwise.
One of my favorite song lyrics is:
Take me for what I am...who I was meant to be. And if you give a damn, take me baby, or leave me.
First of all, I loved reading this. People that choose to relate to other people based on preconceptions, without allowing themselves to get to know absolutely all kinds of people, no matter their appearance, go through life carrying the world on their shoulders. Their hands are tied, they're not free and will never be able to be completely free until they start to view the world the way you do.
So even if you went off topic, thanks for sharing this with us.
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