please
please go to rosie.com
click on the link at the top of her blog with bridge in the title
it should be on the front page
i have been crying for 30 minutes
i am so selfish
i dont think about those people 24 hours a day
i go and buy myself clothes
when i should be sending some to them
i am so selfish
i am cooking steak dinners for myself
not finishing them
and throwing whole steaks away
i buy a loaf of bread
forget about it on the counter or in the breadbox
till it gets moldy
then throw it away
waste of food
i buy one outfit for one ocassion
then never wear it again
waste of clothing
i let the water run in the sink when i am doing dishes or taking a shower
i flush my toilet after i blow my nose and waste a whole toilet full of water
i waste pop
and milk
and food
and clothing
and gas
i am a selfish bitch
if i had to go thru what they are going thru
i probably would have killed myself
find my daughter a safe home with family
then die
i am not that strong
i pretend to be
i am not
i am selfish
insecure
and fat
please watch that video
so you can see what i see
i need someone to understand
click on the link at the top of her blog with bridge in the title
it should be on the front page
i have been crying for 30 minutes
i am so selfish
i dont think about those people 24 hours a day
i go and buy myself clothes
when i should be sending some to them
i am so selfish
i am cooking steak dinners for myself
not finishing them
and throwing whole steaks away
i buy a loaf of bread
forget about it on the counter or in the breadbox
till it gets moldy
then throw it away
waste of food
i buy one outfit for one ocassion
then never wear it again
waste of clothing
i let the water run in the sink when i am doing dishes or taking a shower
i flush my toilet after i blow my nose and waste a whole toilet full of water
i waste pop
and milk
and food
and clothing
and gas
i am a selfish bitch
if i had to go thru what they are going thru
i probably would have killed myself
find my daughter a safe home with family
then die
i am not that strong
i pretend to be
i am not
i am selfish
insecure
and fat
please watch that video
so you can see what i see
i need someone to understand
posted by GingerSnaps at 7:19 PM
5 Comments:
It all gets so overwhelming. We do what we can.. You gotta try to not let it affect you, and keep going.
A lot of the families that made it through this are stronger than I ever could be, and they should be commended for surviving.
Also, you can't think about these people 24 hours a day. The people that are living through this even need a break from thinking about it 24 hours a day.
you aren't a bad person.
After reading this post, I sent it to the "Selfish, Rotten, and Bad People of America" club. On a scale of 1-10, with 1 being just a little bad, and 10 being Karl Rove, you rated a -40.
You are going to have to do much better than that to be a member of this club.
im feeling better today. im not that selfish..i was just really sad
I know LilRed. You were both blessed and cursed with the ability to feel very strong feelings.
You are where you are in life for a reason. You take care of your little girl, and who knows who else. That's your job. And none of us knows when we will be thrust into danger and have to help the people around us.
It's just not your turn to suffer today.
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