i dont want to sleep alone
i go there with hope
that he'll come to me

im sad
i feel untouched
its been so long
the feeling of a loved one with arms
wrapped around me

yet still i push

i sleep alone
a most frightful hing
to be unloved
not be held

im having anxiety
as i type this
all those people
that will never feel again
loved ones floating past them

i call him
he's sleeping
i want to be there
to tell him im sorry
to be held again
to be trusted

i fucked it up again
i will sleep alone yet again tonight
it hurts

i could die tomorrow
unheld