keep your pants zipped babe
i cant sleep with you anymore
because you will fall in love with me
i dont want to hurt you
i can see it in your silent eyes
it has already begun
the shared secrets
the sneaky touch
i have tried this before
to have an unattached "friendship"
sex without feelings
i can pull it off
because i have closed myself off to emotion
i pretend its not real
its just a game
but i am sweet
and kind
i would do anything for you
even if you were a stranger
thats just how i work
youll take it to be love
and ill take it to be passion
and youll get hurt
because i will shut down
i cant fall for you
i cant fall for anyone
the risk is too great
if i hurt
my baby hurts
and she doesnt need to see me cry
ive been doing it for a while
closing up
15 years of faking that i wanted love
rape will do that to you
pretend your happy
so it will just go away
he didnt know he was falling
until he left me
he felt it then
his heart broke
a million peices shattered
right into my conscious
he cant find love
because he sees me everyday
the first one did it too
tried not to get attached
he didnt realize the impact i had
until i was gone forever from his life
he knows now
he gave up the best thing that ever happened to him
his best friend
he told me that recently
"im sorry i hurt you,
you didnt deserve that"
no i didnt
and im not sure that he deserved to be forgiven
but im a good girl
filled with love and not hatred
and i forgave
now he knows
i was the only one that could have made him happy
you watched me dance
i saw you smile
you turned quickly so i wouldnt catch you looking
you pretend were just friends
but i know you feel more
and that is why i cannot sleep with you again
you will get used to my touch
follow the rythme of my dreams
calm me when i wake in a sweat
thinking you need to stay to comfort me
listening to me tell you my innermost thoughts
and realizing
im not the girl i portray at the bar
but a passionate artist and mother
and you will love me
i will feel it coming
actually, i already do
and i will make it awkward
so you will leave
you will try to stay
to be near me
to love me
be with me always
and i will push you away
you make me laugh
you get me
your touch gives me chills
im interested in what you are saying
(when your not showing off to get attention)
you already have it
i will be your friend
because i like having you around
but i will fucking break your heart
because i always do
men and women cant be friends
not in my world
because you will fall in love with me
i dont want to hurt you
i can see it in your silent eyes
it has already begun
the shared secrets
the sneaky touch
i have tried this before
to have an unattached "friendship"
sex without feelings
i can pull it off
because i have closed myself off to emotion
i pretend its not real
its just a game
but i am sweet
and kind
i would do anything for you
even if you were a stranger
thats just how i work
youll take it to be love
and ill take it to be passion
and youll get hurt
because i will shut down
i cant fall for you
i cant fall for anyone
the risk is too great
if i hurt
my baby hurts
and she doesnt need to see me cry
ive been doing it for a while
closing up
15 years of faking that i wanted love
rape will do that to you
pretend your happy
so it will just go away
he didnt know he was falling
until he left me
he felt it then
his heart broke
a million peices shattered
right into my conscious
he cant find love
because he sees me everyday
the first one did it too
tried not to get attached
he didnt realize the impact i had
until i was gone forever from his life
he knows now
he gave up the best thing that ever happened to him
his best friend
he told me that recently
"im sorry i hurt you,
you didnt deserve that"
no i didnt
and im not sure that he deserved to be forgiven
but im a good girl
filled with love and not hatred
and i forgave
now he knows
i was the only one that could have made him happy
you watched me dance
i saw you smile
you turned quickly so i wouldnt catch you looking
you pretend were just friends
but i know you feel more
and that is why i cannot sleep with you again
you will get used to my touch
follow the rythme of my dreams
calm me when i wake in a sweat
thinking you need to stay to comfort me
listening to me tell you my innermost thoughts
and realizing
im not the girl i portray at the bar
but a passionate artist and mother
and you will love me
i will feel it coming
actually, i already do
and i will make it awkward
so you will leave
you will try to stay
to be near me
to love me
be with me always
and i will push you away
you make me laugh
you get me
your touch gives me chills
im interested in what you are saying
(when your not showing off to get attention)
you already have it
i will be your friend
because i like having you around
but i will fucking break your heart
because i always do
men and women cant be friends
not in my world
posted by GingerSnaps at 11:52 PM
8 Comments:
beautiful
I hope you are feeling better...
that was really pretty, and sad.
hope things are better, or at least getting there.
interesting way to look at it keet, but that doesnt work in this case. were already friends and he hangs out with my friends and my daughter.
girls, im not really feeling better, i just coulldnt sleep last night and thought id write what was in m head.
my real dad called the other night too. he was drunk and crying, i didnt answer so he left a message. this has been haunting me for days..
You're thinking of your daughter, and that is soooo admirable. Even though you've had tremendous pain and suffering in your life, you should take great pride in the fact that you are protecting your daughter from the same fate.
Good luck, my friend. You know we are pulling for you.
why aren't you talking to your pop?
From:
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I am reading your words almost daily to feel better about myself. I love your blog (note: I also love French films) It is clear through your words that women today need guidance, someone to look up to. Further then the constant support from an audience that so obviously has a penchant for sympathy. I would suppose you read each of their reactions with as much detachment as you read mine now, but that can't be true...because the ‘pat on the back’ from a middle American special-ed teacher will always be preferred to any real criticism.
Never change. My breakfast cereal won’t have the same crunch.
Lil red is in a padded cell in the local mental hospital. She is unable to read her blog/comments at this time. Just kidding. Her computer is down/she don't know how to use it and wanted me to read her comments to her over the phone. She has severe OCD and can't go a day without reading them. And she might be poopin right now. She will blog when she get's back online.
i cant beleive you wrote that i was poopin! your in trouble mister! im going to come to your house and kick your dog!
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