watch the fuck out

i am so tired
while trying to take off my eye make-up
i almost put a lit cigerette to my eye instead of the cotton ball

i dreamt of someone new last night
someone i shouldnt be dreaming of
my boss
yup, i said it
my boss

we were in the cooler
holding hands
he turned my back to him
so he could hold me
he did
and kissed my neck so sweetly
he whispered into my ear
"you have customers in the bar"
i opened the door and the bar was full of people
people dressed like they were from the twenties
corsets and tuxedos
big beautiful hats
with feathers on them

themn we were outside
me and my boss
with the sky-blue eyes that cut me open at every passing glance

laying on top of one of those wheely things that mechanics lay under cars on
him on top of me
because in my dream i am obese
and i would crush him

spiraling down a deserted mountain round
winding
reckless
steering with our fingertips
going so fast i cant catch my breathe

i look up
i see spirits walking up the mountain road
right in our path
holding hands
unaware that we are going to pass right through them
he holds on to me so tight
me breathing ceases
i am unconscious
but i am dreaming

i see the lovers
when they were alive
kissing
i see their auras
combining in love
and lust
they jump off the mountain
that we are spiraling down
they are all dead
walking back to the top
to jump off again
for all eternity

we pass through them again
they are unaware
that we are lovers
because we hide it

we are coming to the top
yet its on the bottom
and we will jump
to walk up the mountain
for all eternity
because we can never be free to have each other
to sit in the cooler
to kiss in private

people are always watching
dead or alive
it doesnt matter
we can never be together
they will always know
and judge

i actually do have a crush on my boss
the first time we met
was in the cooler
when i was stocking beer for my bar
i felt his energy
attach onto mine

every time i walk by him
my pulse races

then he looks at me
and i have to remember that i am standing
so my knees wont buckle

he feels it too
i can tell
he smiles when he shouldnt
and touches me on "accident"

i dont like anyone else to drink off my drink
or smoke off my smoke
he offered me a drag of his smoke when i was too busy to have my own
and i took it
i never do that

stop being so uptight little bossman
let lilred show you how to have some fun....