Thursday, July 07, 2005

relief is spelled.....EPT

i pee'd on a stick
it says no baby today
i am so relieved

i could not begin to imagine
how to tell a one-night stand
that i am carrying his child

i will not be doing that again

i still do not understand
why i still havent had a monthly visit
from the ickies
or why my boobs feel like they are going to burst off of my chest
i guess all will reveal itself
in due time

i hope all of you know
i do live my life for my daughter
i am sad most of the time
thinking about how things could have been different
i watch movies
and i wish that i would have went to college
met all those intetresting people
had the fun
and the parties
but oh well
i cant change what happened
just what happens
now
i have to live life for the now

i wrote that letter
to the boy i once loved
it didnt come back
return to sender
so he must've gotten it
ill wait for his response
ok, im on pins and needles
it been a really long time
15 years
but, i couldnt just let my feelings go to the grave with me
right?
it actually felt good
to get it all out
i recomend it to everyone
write a letter to someone from your past
and actually send it
last time i did it
i found a lost friend
and even though she now lives in vegas
we still talk often
i couldnt imagine what my life would have been like if i wouldnt have done that
bite the bullet
apologize to someone you once wronged
it feels good
what was that movie with adam sandler
where he called and apologized to that crazy guy who was like a serial killer
crap, i cant remember
this will drive me crazy

id also like to know
whats your favorite movie
and why
im looking to expand my video collection
and need some feedback
and ubermilf
do not recommend any of those cheesy horror flicks you rented
and nick
no porn
i have enough

k, im off to clean my exes house again....

p.s. thanks to all of you who have given me advice
and who care about me and my princess
we will be ok
im just really going thru a rough time
if i didnt voice it
i wouldnt live up to my name
lilreddramaqueen

19 Comments:

Blogger Knitty Kitty said...

no one is here to judge so let your voice run free! Thank goodness about the negative test!

Favorite movie eh? "The American President" It's on TBS pretty much every weekend and I know every word. Smart women, smart men, smart writing from my favorite tv/film writer Aaron Sorkin..

That or "The Sweetest Thing" greatest raunchy girl movie but its the unrated version or nothing at all!!!

-LMK

8:41 PM  
Blogger for_the_lonely said...

I am glad that this are all clear! I am sure that was a relief for you.

I have several fav movies...they are "charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Good Will Hunting, and Save the last dance. I think that those are my favoritr because every main character had to overcome obstacles and stay true to themselves. Sometimes our favorite movies reflect who we are on the inside.

I will continue to keep you and your little girl in my prayers. You know that I live in SD, right? We are not that far from one another! Plus, I have family that lives all over in MN. Small world, huh?

Keep your head up..things will get better!

Love,
Sarah

10:27 PM  
Blogger Ubermilf said...

LilRed, my period was late this month, two, and my boobs were porn-star big and tender, and all I could think was "Uberdilf, you've had two vasectomies. If I'm pregnant, I'm getting the scissors and taking care of you myself!" But then, I got my period.

So, there ya go. Uberdilf doesn't know how close he came...

12:29 AM  
Blogger still_figuring_out said...

1.you`ve got mail.
2.one fine day.
3.anne of green gables.

yeah, i`m a sucker for romance.

1:37 AM  
Blogger Lo Lo Lova said...

Lil Red: Good news! I truly hope you mean it about no more one-nighters.

Fave movies:

"It's a Wonderful Life," "Old School," "Office Space," "This is Spinal Tap," "Best in Show," "Overboard," "Planes, Trains, and Automobiles," "Sixteen Candles", "Father of the Bride," "Baby Boom"

7:27 AM  
Blogger King Nate Unknown said...

My suggestion is: The Big Lebowski.

And it is near impossible to swear off one nighters. I wish you luck in trying to though.

1:05 PM  
Blogger GingerSnaps said...

i will stick true to my word about the one-night stand thing. i really had a scare this time because i was pulling some springer shit. i was with three guys in a two month period.which i have never ever done before, so i was really scared. i think i was trying to retaliate against my ex who has become a slut since we broke up.

anywhoo, great movies ladies! i already have alot of them, however i have not ever seen harold and maude. people have recommended it to me my whole life and i just forget when i get to the movie store. maybe since anthony works at one, ill see if he'll send it to me...wouldnt that be great if we could all seend each other stuff. we could have like a circle of books and movies or something..

if you guys knew that my boobs are already porn star big youd really feel sorry for me when i get like this.

funny story, yesterday, i was at walmart with my daughter and she was riding on the front of the cart, between my arms, my boobs kept hitting her everytime id walk, she got pissed at me cause she thought i was hitting her and i told her i couldnt help it, it was my boobies fault, she yells in walmart "well mom, if your boobs werent so big, they wouldnt get in my way all the time"

geez, how i love my baby girl...

1:07 PM  
Blogger GingerSnaps said...

sarah, where does your family live in mn?
i am way south, bordering on wisconsin...like i can see it out my window..

ubermilf, i think you should blog that story, i almost pee'd my pants.

lilmissknit, the sweetest thing is one of my favorites. the resteraunt scene is , i think, could possibly be, my favorite song..lol
petunia, i will get right on that...going to the store,,,,harold and maude, harold and maude...in the brain..

still figuring...how much do you love rubert???i love that movie, but madonna will never take the place of julia in my best friends wedding..that movie ive gone thru three copies of.

lo lo...have i not expressed how much i love any movie made in the 80's....do you like pretty in pink too?

oh or somekind of wonderful?

nate, nate, nate...you know, that was the name of the evil almost impregnator....i think i will be putting all nate's on a time-out for a while..ok, like 5 minutes anyway..

1:15 PM  
Blogger Lo Lo Lova said...

I like "Breakfast Club" better than "Pretty in Pink," but I was a HUGE Molly Ringwald fan, so I do own almost all of her flicks. You should rent "About Last Night." Total Brat-Packer Movie.

Kids say the darnedest things, don't they? I can't wait until my son starts talking. Or can I....

2:09 PM  
Blogger GingerSnaps said...

dont think i dont already own that movie lo lo....

ok i have them all...i am also a huge molly fan, i loved that she made a cameo in that teen
movie.. i almost pee'd my pants when i saw that. also, i love any john cusack movie

2:40 PM  
Blogger King Nate Unknown said...

Porn Star big? :-) Excellent...

I think I'm still begging you for a pic somehow :-)

4:18 PM  
Blogger GingerSnaps said...

nah-a-ever ever!!

8:29 PM  
Blogger Scarlet Hip said...

Glad all is clear!

I have way too many favorite movies. But the ones that come to mind are The Princess Bride, Aliens, Casablanca, and Fight Club.
What a weird combination.

I also love the 80's movies. 16 Candles!

9:21 AM  
Blogger GingerSnaps said...

brooke, that is a weird combination. are you sure you dont have multible personalities?

10:58 AM  
Blogger Scarlet Hip said...

I am positive. And so are we.

11:34 AM  
Blogger GingerSnaps said...

lol, are you trying to confuse me??

2:09 PM  
Blogger still_figuring_out said...

walmart, of all places??

hilarious!

10:59 PM  
Blogger Ace of Spades said...

i love anything with Drew Barrymore, Sandra Bullock or Adam Sandler in it.
cocktail, wedding singer, speed, miss congeniality 1 and 2, say anything(love cusack too). just a few of my favorites.

2:44 AM  
Blogger Ace of Spades said...

oh, and dont forget about Bound or If these walls could talk two

2:47 AM  

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