will it ever end?

I feel like my life is over
i hate my new job
i throw up every day
i had a one night stand
a couple times
with the same guy
now im late...

the everyday dealing
with my emotions
has gone awry

i make no sense

overwhelmed with regret
should have kept my legs shut
my mouth too
fucking up chances of friendships
because i like to talk

its not about being a gossip
not one bit
its about sharing my feelings
with someone i thought was a close friend
someone to keep my dirty little secrets
but she didnt
friendship over
before it began

i am late
i am scared
im gonna throw up again

i saw a bumper sticker once
"stupid people shouldnt breed"
im thinking of a new one
"bypolars shouldnt either"
our love is too intense
for eveyone else
they dont understand
the passion scares them off
add baby in belly
magnafied by 1000
i am too intense for myself
and for you too

i am sorry she told you
i just needed a friend
to keep my secrets too
i couldnt do it alone
a crazy never can