crush
feeling butterflies in my tummy
because the crush is back
im seeing him tonight
he's single now
after being engaged for 5 years
but flirted with me for two of them
i backed off because i knew there was someone else
and i cant bring myself to sleep with someone whos taken
its wrong
to deceive
and cheat
i tend to get emotionaly involved
witht he people i sleep with
and that is not good
when their heart belongs to someone else
i dated a married man once
for 7 months
until i found out he was married
and also sleeping with two of my coworkers
lets just say
some shit went down
i am not a woman to be reckless with
my heart does not forgive very easily
and i get very angry
and i am very creative
in the revenge department
he will never cheat again
i tell you that much
actually, im not even sure he could ever use his dick again
back to the crush
i have never understood
how you can have such intense feelings
for someone you barely know
i barely know him
yet i sometimes think that he is right for me
in so many ways
different things come out of me
depending on who im with
not like im being a poser
some people bring out different traits in me
sometimes i didnt even know i had them
passion for shared things
brings you closer together
like did you ever notice
when your around someone who is a gossip
you either think really lowly of them
or you join right in
its not that you want to
it just happens
they bring it out of you
i can talk to some people about my true passion
and not ever worry that they will judge
and others
you clam up
because they WILL judge
he is not shallow
even if its nothing more than a crush
it will be a good friendship
i can feel it
because he is now allowed to have friendships with women
and open up
and be himself
its like a disguise
a relationship
it shelters who you really are
when you are insecure
you take on the role of your significant other
and lose who you truly are
and when its over
because you turned into someone else
you find out who you truly are
and now
after many years of searching
i am
who i was
truly meant to be
i know my writing is all over the place
it just how it comes into my head
if its hard to understand
then thats how i see it too
jumbled in the corners of my mind
trying to peice it together like a jigsaw puzzle
doing the outside first
the matching the colors
and pieceing out the middle
one aspect of life at a time
when i bring it together
i will be lost
without chaos
because the crush is back
im seeing him tonight
he's single now
after being engaged for 5 years
but flirted with me for two of them
i backed off because i knew there was someone else
and i cant bring myself to sleep with someone whos taken
its wrong
to deceive
and cheat
i tend to get emotionaly involved
witht he people i sleep with
and that is not good
when their heart belongs to someone else
i dated a married man once
for 7 months
until i found out he was married
and also sleeping with two of my coworkers
lets just say
some shit went down
i am not a woman to be reckless with
my heart does not forgive very easily
and i get very angry
and i am very creative
in the revenge department
he will never cheat again
i tell you that much
actually, im not even sure he could ever use his dick again
back to the crush
i have never understood
how you can have such intense feelings
for someone you barely know
i barely know him
yet i sometimes think that he is right for me
in so many ways
different things come out of me
depending on who im with
not like im being a poser
some people bring out different traits in me
sometimes i didnt even know i had them
passion for shared things
brings you closer together
like did you ever notice
when your around someone who is a gossip
you either think really lowly of them
or you join right in
its not that you want to
it just happens
they bring it out of you
i can talk to some people about my true passion
and not ever worry that they will judge
and others
you clam up
because they WILL judge
he is not shallow
even if its nothing more than a crush
it will be a good friendship
i can feel it
because he is now allowed to have friendships with women
and open up
and be himself
its like a disguise
a relationship
it shelters who you really are
when you are insecure
you take on the role of your significant other
and lose who you truly are
and when its over
because you turned into someone else
you find out who you truly are
and now
after many years of searching
i am
who i was
truly meant to be
i know my writing is all over the place
it just how it comes into my head
if its hard to understand
then thats how i see it too
jumbled in the corners of my mind
trying to peice it together like a jigsaw puzzle
doing the outside first
the matching the colors
and pieceing out the middle
one aspect of life at a time
when i bring it together
i will be lost
without chaos
posted by GingerSnaps at 11:23 AM
4 Comments:
Fall hard, but make sure you have some soft place to land Lil Red. Enjoy your time with the crush!
I would just say "BE CAREFUL!" If he flirted with you for two years while he was engaged to someone else, and who can blame him because you're gorgeous, but there's no reason to believe he wouldn't do that to you too. So, have fun, but be careful.
Yeah crushes rock.
I have had a crush on the same guy for years.
Recently I realized that the crush wasn't on him anymore it was on the fantasy I had created in my head and can go back to being a normal person with him... but I do admit to disapproving of the person he is seeing now. Mostly because she is a moron and he can do so much better.
I agree with staying away from the married/attatched guys. I've been their / done that too. It is not good.
I really hope you have fun and that you protect your heart at the same time. The crash could really suck! (But I hope it doesn't) Good luck!
"he will never cheat again
i tell you that much
actually, im not even sure he could ever use his dick again"
LOL. LOL. oh LDQ, i adore women who are creative in the revenge department! hahahhaaaaa...
and i agree with dragonfly, crushes rock!
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