my mommy
the woman that gave birth to me
is in alot of pain
from the moment i came out of her womb
shes been crying
she has manic depression
diagnosed at 17
in the treatment center right aftre she had me
she has not dealt with it very well
nor have i
i went sent to a foster home
at nine months old
so she could get better
didnt work
she got married years later
to someone i would call dad
and years later i would find out he wasnt
living in this lie
i think it was killing her
well not killing, but not helping
two more kids
then divorce
i tried to make it work
they were too young
i went to foster care
they went to dads
married again
this one just failed
he left her on tuesday
failed
failed
thats all she hears
my mom is not a failure
shes a beautiful woman
with a very yellow soul
to make up for things gone bad
she shops
and shops
and shops
and shops
for everyone she knows
her house is like a warehouse
filled with beautiful thoughtful pictures and trinkets and clothes
for everyone she knows
the chiropracter
her doctor
the neighbor
and us
she thinks this will make up
for a life gone awry
thats not what i want
i want her
to be happy
and healthy
and stable
to focus her love
on her kids and grandkids
for the time she has left
she is not very well
this time its not the depression
i think its worse
her body is worn out
down to 89 lbs
bleeding internally
she cant eat
or stay awake
no money to pay the medical bills
she says
the bleeding wont stop
its coming from her uterus
from where i am from
but it feels more like from her heart
she hurting
from her heart
and i cant help her
because she wont let me
so ill just keep trying
and love her
when her heart is broken
so for mothers day
my nephew is here
from missouri
she doesnt know
i will surprise her
because i love her
the giver of my life
my mommy
i love you
is in alot of pain
from the moment i came out of her womb
shes been crying
she has manic depression
diagnosed at 17
in the treatment center right aftre she had me
she has not dealt with it very well
nor have i
i went sent to a foster home
at nine months old
so she could get better
didnt work
she got married years later
to someone i would call dad
and years later i would find out he wasnt
living in this lie
i think it was killing her
well not killing, but not helping
two more kids
then divorce
i tried to make it work
they were too young
i went to foster care
they went to dads
married again
this one just failed
he left her on tuesday
failed
failed
thats all she hears
my mom is not a failure
shes a beautiful woman
with a very yellow soul
to make up for things gone bad
she shops
and shops
and shops
and shops
for everyone she knows
her house is like a warehouse
filled with beautiful thoughtful pictures and trinkets and clothes
for everyone she knows
the chiropracter
her doctor
the neighbor
and us
she thinks this will make up
for a life gone awry
thats not what i want
i want her
to be happy
and healthy
and stable
to focus her love
on her kids and grandkids
for the time she has left
she is not very well
this time its not the depression
i think its worse
her body is worn out
down to 89 lbs
bleeding internally
she cant eat
or stay awake
no money to pay the medical bills
she says
the bleeding wont stop
its coming from her uterus
from where i am from
but it feels more like from her heart
she hurting
from her heart
and i cant help her
because she wont let me
so ill just keep trying
and love her
when her heart is broken
so for mothers day
my nephew is here
from missouri
she doesnt know
i will surprise her
because i love her
the giver of my life
my mommy
i love you
posted by GingerSnaps at 1:34 PM
4 Comments:
Deep stuff over here! Quite different from our blog, eh? Thank you so much for stopping by and commenting. You're welcome anytime! I hope that your mother has a fabulous Mother's Day. She is lucky to have a daughter who loves her - unconditionally.
just be there 4 your mom, no matter how trying it gets
LEMONHEAD IS THE REASON ROSIE TURNED OFF HER COMMENTS. DEB POSTED REALLY STUPID STUFF LOTS OF TIMES EACH DAY. i'LL MISS READING YOUR COMMENTS ON ROSIE'S BLOG.
i highly doubt it was just one person that made rosie turn off her comments. she has thicl skin and has obviously put up with alot of shit. i dont blame her for turning off the comments. they were getting out of hand, myself posting included. it was like we were getting addicted to commenting. she doesnt need to hear what we have to say. we hear her and inspires us and thats all that matters.
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