tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-122971682009-10-31T16:25:15.017-05:00sitting here staring at the tattoo on my thigh thinking "i wonder if the tattoo artist thought i had nice legs"GingerSnapshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12171040522626576567lilreddramaqueen@yahoo.comBlogger160125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297168.post-3184211150799750272009-10-31T16:14:00.002-05:002009-10-31T16:23:04.601-05:00

I want youFucking hardGrab a handfulOf this dirty fucking girlThrow her downBeat her assMake her bleedAs she deserves the painOnly you can giveThe deep darkdoesn’t show to the observantI clench my teethAs your bite breaks the skinMmmmmm…Do it againAnd againUntil the marks remind meOf the hatred you cover upDo you want me to claw up to the next level?Is your fury suppressedAm I also your

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She ran down the hall fighting back tearsshoved thru the bathroom doorlocked herself in the last stallrest her head on the toilet and sobbed.the kind of sobbing that leaves you gasping for airand an uncontrollable trembling throughout your entire being...The were a match made in junior high heavenshe was a cheerleader and

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dick in a box - uncensoredI want one!

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three days agoI quit smokingevery second of those three daysi have wanted to smokeevery secondi am thinking about it right nowpulling the smoke inover my lips an into my chestfeeling it fill the voidcutting anxiety4 bucks a dayfinding itscraping for itborrowing itbegging for itim craving just thinking about themi know the smell is nastythe taste is like bilemy skin is starting to wrinklemy

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its real peopleyesterdaya family friend37hung herself4 week old babyand 1, 6 and 8 year oldsall girlsall forever without their mommyi could think of so many more important things in my lifethan sending hate mailand back-stabbingsee whats in front of youbefore you bury your loved oneswith rope burnaround their neck

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thats what i ami hate someonei loathe themi cant stand to be around themfor the wrong they dida sacred linecrossed in my eyestheir glasses foggedwith sin and filthfor lustin 1989i walked home with my best friends boyfriendmiddle of the nightwe lay down in the lawngaxing at the starsa kissjust onethe guilt still eats at meeven after more than 15 yearsi never told herjust stopped being her

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bostonlongtime/foreplayroni was 13he was 22i had just had a miscarriagefrom the rapewe met thru a friendthat tried to beat me up just days beforehe made me feel goodtaught me things about sexhe showed me offhis pretty little girlfriendwith a personality that could knock you on your asslying on the floorin the basementin front of the stereo he so cherishedbostonlongtime/foreplayso loud the neibors

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the test on thursdayMMPIabsolute fearwill they find outwill they want to keep me away from other peoplefor fear that i will take their breatheand not remembersometimes it tells me to pick up a knifeand carve it into that onethat one that hurt menot only onebut one at a timethe unclethe priestmy fatherthe friendsthe betrayersi take backtell him to stop talking to meyell sometimesi cant take a

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Any one of uscan beginwhere there is no beginning.where there is no floorno door to keep thingsfrom breaking incan begin waiting fora beginningthat isn’t made of wishingyou weren’t born at allwhen you were borninto nothinginto tiredinto hungryinto rage. Any one of uscan have the sheets flown backand mad whiskey breath take our breathbig grabbing ruthlesshands take our flesh, take

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st. james hotelredwing minnesotaowned by the redwing shoe companymy former employer*********************************************************************im thinking about checking myself into an inpatient treatment programfor depressioni am at rock bottomi just want to be understoodstanding up for yourself is supposed to be a good thing right?why is it everytime i doi get shit onevery job ive ever

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todayi watched melissa etheridgeon oprahshe said that breast cancer treatments have come a long wayand most people dont die from it anymoreits easier to cure nowshes curedfor nowat 730pm tonighta wonderful woman i knowlost her fight with the monstersweethonestbeautifulso smart she could take you to another worldwith her thoughtsvoicedleaving behind two beautiful honest intellegent daughters20 and

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she has styleshe has graceshe has such a pretty smile on her perky little face

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i am the ultimate faghagbut you bring shameto gay culturei was the only onethere for him when his mom diedwhen he moved to floridai called every nighti was ready to fly down and help him move homewhen he got homesicki listened to his liesabout conquestsi know he made upwent to family functionsnot really wanting tothinking his family would judge mewonder why i befriended himwith his crude and rude

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ive given up hopeon having a normal lifenot even normal so much as just OKim pulling my hair outtrying to make everyone happywhen im really just making myself miserablein the processive disowned my family(except my mom)for not hearing mewhen i asked very loudlyfor help i desperately neededthey dont get iti confronted them about being abusedand neglectedand denial was blocking their earsim not

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i just ate 20 fruit roll-upsin a rowand now im eyeing up a jumbo bag of sunflower seedsto salt up my tongueand chap my lipsobsessive compulsiveyes i ami had a biopsy yesterdayon my legthey popped out some tissueto see why ive had hivescontinuously for 4 monthsall over my bodyim burning and itchingi can tell you right nowstress is the causebut my boss needs to see something medicalor ill lose my

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dear mr. president come take a walk with me lets pretend were just two people and your not better than me id like to ask you some questions and if we can speak honestly what do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street? who do you pray to at night before you go to sleep? what do you feel when you look in the mirror? are you proud? how do you sleep while the rest of us cry? how do you

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tomorrowim going to watch a friend get buried36breast cancerim overwhelmedi dont want to goi have buried many friendsmost were suicideoverdosesand drunk drivingall under 30to know that she sufferedand didnt do anything to bring it onthis will be harder than the rest.............................................................a long time agoi gave up christianityi dont beleiveim scared of

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i used toat one point in my lifenot so long agohave many people to callno matter what time of day(but especially around midnight)when something amazing(or not so amazing)happened in my life.today howeverthat is not the casemy daughter read her first wordmy four year-oldread the word "love"from the coffee cup she was drinking milk out ofshe didnt know it said loveshe read the letters out loudas i

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i just dont know what to do. i have emailed you and left a couple messages for you to call me since you came up here but i get nothin. yet mom tells me that kristy tells her that you dont call me becasue i dont call you on your birthdays or christmas, but i do. i am doin the best i can to try to keep a relationship with everyone but when you come up here half a doxen times in 5 years and never

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just a few

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de-fuckin-pressed

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i went out with michael jackson sunday night.full story to come when i get the pictures developed.be interestedit was fun

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phone calls everydayfrom the same bill collectortrying to get money from an ultra soundalmost 4 years agoi woke up one morningalmost four months after my daughter was bornto pass something almost as large as a 5 pound babyrushed to emergencyto be told i had a miscarriagei knew it wasnt trueyou have to have sex to be pregnantid have none of thatthe doctor said my womb was getting ready for a

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i am about to walk over to my bathroomand have what i hope will bemy very last cigarettethen im going to go for a walkclean out my cartake a showerscrub all traces of smoke out of my apartmentand throw away my lighterwish me luckUPDATEit lasted for 8 hours.i broke down and bought a new pack.well, maybe next time.

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i realized yesterdayin the middle of an anxiety attackthat 15 years ago this weeksome really important thingstook place( i was gonna say happened to me but "happened to me" didnt really seem appropriate)my boyfriend (23) me (14)went to prison to serve his 5 year drug sentencehe wanted me to wait for himthe night he left i slept with his best friendtripped on acid for the first timestole a car (

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